Dialogue Journal #1 PDF

I will lie if I say that I haven't been under pressure during my school years. In actuality, managing it is difficult. Sometimes I start overthinking and not realizing that I've spent my time, made my situation worse, and failed to find a solution. During my school years, deciding my profession was...

I will lie if I say that I haven't been under pressure during my school years. In actuality, managing it is difficult. Sometimes I start overthinking and not realizing that I've spent my time, made my situation worse, and failed to find a solution. During my school years, deciding my profession was the hardest pressure that I felt. It was challenging because I wanted something that would give me a platform to express myself and to be creative. After researching some professions, I found the exact one that would fit me. What I needed was to learn more about business, specifically marketing. However, being a lawyer was my family's dream for me. I had no idea what to do, whether it was to fulfill my ambition or to make my family proud. Looking back, I realize that although it was the most difficult part of that time, I am going through more pressure now. The first one is financial pressure. It is hard to come to the capital and start everything from zero. There is pressure on my social life. Similarly, this one is directly related to coming to another city, losing the connection with the majority of your friends, and trying to build a friendship here. This past month I have been feeling so lonely. None of my friends are studying at my university, everything and everyone is strange here. I miss my city, the people, and the memories I had there. Everything. A further challenge I face is balancing social and academic life. It is too hard that I would say I can't even handle it. I always feel guilty because I\'m afraid I won\'t make it, that I won\'t succeed in anything, and that I won\'t be able to manage my social and academic life. It is hard, yes, but I am trying to remind myself that everything will come and go, I have to go through this, have to feel these emotions. This will make me even stronger. I just have to not lose myself, find the right solution, or just live this period, which will surely pass soon.